Love!!

4 letters.Innumerable emotions.All of us have at some point or the other tried to define love. Its such a waste of time cos you just have to be in love to understand what its all about. Definitions sort of bound the emotion into the 4 letters that it is.

To just exist and let the feeling drown you with it is so easier said than done. What with our mind constantly telling and asking us what will happen and trying to plan the perfect life with all the questions.

Promise to not let my mind do its usual banter and love the emotion and everything that comes along with it.

One day at a time...

Live your life one day at a time. I have heard this line so often in my life.Its 24 hrs armed with a zillion seconds to change and shape your future.
Every small decision has far reaching consequences-[ Paulo Coelho]

You are part of a giant wheel which just keeps moving and taking you along with it.Moments pass like the leaves falling down with the breeze of time.And through the memories you look back and wonder If it would have turned out differently had you taken another step.

Mind control!!

Time is relative to the speed of your thoughts. It gets shaped by what you think.The day can be exciting,slow,boring and dull depending on how you think.What if there was a place where everything you thought could be controlled and altered to suit you.That would be so surreal.What if we are actually poised to see that happen someday on earth. All consciousness coming together to look and change the present for a better future.

You stop and think. You mull over all the options.You know there is no way out. There is only a glimmer of hope and you hang onto it.You survive it again.The questions and worries never cease to reduce. It just gets worse every time.Then the faint light beckons you again and you reach out to it. Is it all in the mind or is life really testing you?Is the hope your way out of the mess that your mind creates for you and if yes then do you hope against hope all the time and pull yourself out. If everything happens as it should. Should you really think so much? life will happen in any case. So the trick is to not fall prey to the mind and just let each second come and go and LIVE it without regret.

of increasing waistlines

I've been trying to not stuff myself with food. But off late have been just going for it. My ever increasing waistline and half hearted attempts at exercise are just not helping me get anywhere close to the fab body i had imagined for myself.

If only there was a 'pill' i could swallow or order myself a new 'waist'- life would so different.

Tomorrow is another and i stare at yet another promise to myself.Hopefully,my legs will take me for that 'walk' and my mind will stop me from eating every 10 seconds

aahh..the calling of food

'What should be'

I've realized that all us are inherently hopeless romantic.All our lives we aim to be happy. We want to be surrounded by undying love and attention. We constantly crave for that perfect world and every action tries to somehow grab and hold onto the thoughts that we have for ourselves.

Its so difficult to go against what we have imagined for ourselves all these years. We get disappointed when the very thoughts don't turn into reality.When 'What is' stares into our faces very differently from 'what should be' we freak out.

If only we could not be so hard on ourselves and take what we get and grab an old 'what is' and let 'what should be' aside. Life would be so much simpler and easier to handle.

Fond memories

My first bike ride was when I was all of 3.Dad in his black leather jacket and me in my white frilly frock sitting in front pretending like I was riding the bike. I also remember the time when we sneaked out of the house at 2 am to go eat Ice cream while mom & ani slept.Not to forget his reaction of utter disbelief when he saw that I had colored my hair with red streaks which mind you he noticed only after 3 months :)

The funniest was ofcourse the time when I got ‘advice’ on how I should get married to a ‘nice boy’ when the ‘right time’ comes as I was stepping into college. None of that ever happened of course :).Though looking back at that conversation one of things that stayed with me was how he said that he & mom will be with me in any decision of mine. And he truly was always there standing behind like a rock.

I will miss him here with me now cos I know that he is walking the sands of time in a different realm. The good thing is that I just have to close my eyes and go back to being 3 sitting on that bike having the world at my feet :)